As I get ready for the week and for the surgery on Thursday, I reflect back on the past weeks. Things that have happened since my last post, I had to get a mammogram a couple weeks ago. Timing worked out to get it done in between the breaks with the IVF. If you haven’t had one and are supposed to….be sure to get it scheduled. It is definitely not fun, they flatten out the girls to a pancake and it’s uncomfortable but it’s needed. I had a scare where they needed me to come back to look at my right breast. They compared a test a had a few years ago and there was a change (I requested one because a friend was diagnosed at 36 and my aunt had found a lump that was non cancerous). Then recently, a friend I have from high school was just diagnosed with Breast Cancer and she had a double mastectomy on June 1st. I went back for the 2nd scan and everything was fine! I wish they would do another scan at your first visit because it’s truly not right to scare someone like that! The 2nd visit they have the radiologist look at your scans and they let you know right away if things are good or bad. We also thought I might have another dermoid cyst but I was cleared after a check up at a facility that had better equipment.
This past week, both Jack and I were in Vegas (me for work, Jack for play). For me, it’s a long week and quite tiring to be “on” all day and night. I did have some fun on Tuesday as I was living in the moment (with help of a couple of glasses of wine) and decided it was a good idea to go dancing. I was able to let my hair down after weeks of feeling down about our situation. I think this process is starting to get to me and I have been tearing up for no reason more times I can count lately. I am an emotional mess. I think I danced my sorrows away. 👯 I recouped over the weekend, prepped my mind and body to be put under again. This will be the 8th time under anesthesia:
- Laproscopy – dermoid cyst on right ovary (Don’t look up what type of cyst it is unless you want to be grossed out)
- D&C for 2nd miscarriage
- Laproscopy & hysteroscopy – dermoid cyst on left ovary & remove scarring from the uterus
- Egg retrieval #1 = no embryos 😔
- Egg retrieval #2 = 1 embryo
- Hysteroscopy – remove polyp
- Egg retrieval #3 = 2 embryo
Hysteroscopy is a surgery where they go into your uterus with a camera and scissors. Thankfully there are no incisions like the laproscopy, this is where they go through your hoo haa. 😏
I’m nervous and lately I’m frustrated on how much time this is taking. I will likely not be able transfer until the fall at this point. I will be asking my doctor if it is possible to try naturally or IUI in the event the last embryo does not work; perhaps this might make things going a little faster than waiting until the fall; we’ll see.
Again, we appreciate everyone’s support and listening to our story.